They say i hold grudges

 They say i hold grudges…

no.

i just remember.

i remember how small you made me feel
how i questioned myself
how i replayed it over and over
trying to figure out if i was the problem

i remember the silence
when an apology should’ve come
the distance that followed
like it was supposed to fix everything

and i remember realizing…

time passing doesn’t undo hurt
silence isn’t accountability
and distance isn’t repair

you don’t get to come back
like nothing happened
just because enough days went by

i’m not holding onto anger…

i just finally learned
i don’t have to accept
what once broke me