Maybe God

 Maybe God really does give the clingiest babies to the moms who never felt like anyone’s first choice.

The moms who grew up feeling like the backup plan.
The second pick.
The one people called only when it was convenient.

And then motherhood happens
and suddenly there’s this tiny human who reaches for you before anyone else
who cries for you
who settles the second your arms wrap around them.

It hits different when you’ve never been chosen like that before.
When you’ve never been the safe place
the favorite person
the one someone can’t fall asleep without.

But now you are.
Every single day.

And maybe that’s the most healing part of all
finally learning what it feels like to be loved first
by someone who doesn’t know how to love you any other way.