No one prepares you

 No one prepares you for how heavy motherhood can feel at night When the world is asleep and it’s just you wide awake heart racing as you watch your baby’s tiny chest move up and down You’re not up because they’re crying you’re up because you’re terrified they’ll stop breathing

You hold your breath until they take theirs Over and over

People think it’s dramatic but it’s not It’s loving someone so much it physically hurts It’s the what ifs that haunt you in the dark The responsibility that presses down on your chest until you wonder how you’ll ever breathe normally again

And still you’d do it all a thousand times over Because that’s motherhood It’s raw It’s gut wrenching It’s lying awake at 2 am loving someone so fiercely it terrifies you

If you’re in those quiet hours right now checking to see if your baby’s still breathing just know you’re not alone I’m right there with you And so are countless other mamas all of us loving our babies so deeply it shakes us to our core