After a miscarriage

 After a miscarriage, your body being quiet can feel louder than any symptom ever was. You start waiting for nausea as proof. Waiting for exhaustion as reassurance. Waiting for something uncomfortable just to tell you everything is still okay.

An easy pregnancy does not mean something bad is happening.
It does not mean your body is failing to signal danger.
It does not mean history is repeating itself.

It means this pregnancy is different.
It means this body is doing things differently this time.
And different can feel terrifying when you were taught to brace for loss.

Lack of symptoms is not a warning sign.
Calm is not a setup.
Peace is not a trick.

But trauma doesn’t care about logic. It whispers what if when things feel still. It makes you question good news because bad news once lived in the same space.

You are not ungrateful.
You are not pessimistic.
You are protecting your heart the only way you know how.

It is okay to be scared and hopeful at the same time.
It is okay to need reassurance even when everything looks fine.
It is okay to say this is hard even when this is good.

Today, you are pregnant.
Today, your body is carrying life.
Today is allowed to be enough.