My kids might be the reason I feel like I’m losing my mind

 My kids might be the reason I feel like I’m losing my mind

But they are always the reason I hold it together

They test me in every way possible
My patience
My energy
My ability to function on little to no sleep
They push every limit
Every button
Every boundary

And still
They are my reason
For every deep breath I take
For every time I keep going when I want to give up
For every ounce of strength I didn’t know I had until they needed it

There are moments where I want to scream into a pillow
Where I fantasize about silence
Where I question if I’m even doing this right

But then I look at them
The way their face lights up when I walk into the room
The way their little voice says mama like it’s the safest word in the world
The way they need me
Not perfect
Not polished
Just me

And I remember why I hold it all together
Why I don’t fall apart
Why I keep showing up
Even when it’s hard
Even when I’m tired
Even when no one sees me doing it

Because they are my heart
My reason
My everything

It’s not easy
But it’s always worth it