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  It’s not my turn to sleep in. It’s not my turn to chase dreams without checking the clock. It’s not my turn to put my wants and needs at the top of the list. But it is my turn. It’s my turn to rock little bodies that only want mama. To answer a thousand questions before 9 a.m. To pour my love into tiny moments that may never be seen but are always felt. It’s my turn to witness the magic of firsts. To hold hands that still reach for me without hesitation. To soak up this exhausting, beautiful, raw season of motherhood. This won’t always be my turn. But right now, it is. And I’m holding it close. Even on the hard days. Even when I miss the old me. Because one day, I’ll miss this me too.

Marilyn Monroe as Pola Debevoise in How to Marry a Millionaire a 1953 American romantic comedy film directed by Jean Negulesco. The film also stars Betty Grable and Lauren Bacall as three fashionable Manhattan models, along with William Powell, David Wayne, Rory Calhoun, and Cameron Mitchell as their wealthy marks. Although Grable received top billing in the screen credits, Monroe's name was listed first in all advertising, including the trailer.

  So I’ve been rewatching Little House on the Prairie and suddenly feeling like I was born in the wrong century. I loved it as a kid, but I think I appreciate it even more now. Everything just looks so simple. Family dinners, neighbors helping each other, no social media or spam calls. I told someone the other day I wanted to live back then. They didn’t even blink before saying something like “You’d last about five minutes without Wi-Fi, hot showers, and an indoor toilet.” Rude. But also….accurate. Okay, let’s be honest. I don’t actually want to travel by wagon, haul water from a well, or use an outhouse, but there is something beautiful about the way they valued family, faith, and community. The way they cared and showed up for each other is something I wish we could bring back. Or maybe I’m just crushing on Charles Ingalls in his suspenders. Either way, if you want something different from the usual noise, something people online would probably call “wholesome,” and something tha...

  George C. Scott (1927–1999) was one of the most formidable actors of his time, known for his intense screen presence, uncompromising standards, and refusal to conform to Hollywood’s norms. Born in Wise, Virginia, and raised in Detroit, Scott served in the U.S. Marine Corps before studying drama at the University of Missouri. He began his career in theater, earning acclaim for his work in Shakespeare and modern drama. Transitioning to film in the late 1950s, Scott quickly established himself as a forceful performer, earning an Oscar nomination for Anatomy of a Murder (1959). His early film work showcased his commanding voice and ability to dominate a scene without overshadowing the story. Scott’s most iconic role came as General George S. Patton in Patton (1970), a performance that won him the Academy Award for Best Actor—though he famously refused the award, criticizing the Oscars as a “meat parade.” This act cemented his reputation as fiercely independent and uninterested in Hol...

Peter Brown, born Pierre Lind de Brown on October 5, 1935, in New York City, became a notable figure in television Westerns throughout the 1960s and 1970s. He gained prominence through his role as Deputy Johnny McKay on NBC’s Lawman (1958–1962), where he played a young, energetic lawman learning the ropes under Marshal Dan Troop. Brown’s performance combined youthful enthusiasm with determination, appealing to audiences and creating a dynamic partnership with the seasoned actor John Russell. This role cemented his place in the pantheon of TV Western stars and opened doors for future television projects. Following Lawman, Peter Brown starred in Laredo (1965–1967), portraying Texas Ranger Chad Cooper. The series showcased Brown’s ability to blend action, humor, and charm, further solidifying his status as a leading actor in the Western genre. His work was characterized by a consistent portrayal of strong, reliable, and morally upright characters who embodied the values of justice and loy...

  Guy Madison was an American actor who became a symbol of rugged charm and Western heroism in mid-20th-century Hollywood. Born in Pumpkin Center, California, Madison was originally a radio announcer before entering the world of acting. His towering presence, blond good looks, and affable personality helped him secure his first leading roles in Hollywood films during the late 1940s. Madison quickly became associated with the Western genre, starring in films that highlighted his heroism and charismatic screen presence. Madison’s most iconic role was as Wild Bill Hickok in the long-running television series The Adventures of Wild Bill Hickok (1951–1958). His portrayal was praised for balancing toughness with relatability, capturing audiences with a blend of action and humor. Madison also appeared in a range of films, from adventure stories to dramas, showcasing his adaptability. Despite his popularity, he faced challenges in maintaining the momentum of his career as Hollywood evolved...

  Before having kids you see other moms talking about how they didn’t feel like themself after giving birth but until you’re there for yourself it’s hard to truly understand how long it actually takes to feel like yourself again after having a baby. They’ll warn you about the sleepless nights. The diaper changes. The cluster feeding. But nothing can prepare you for the way your sense of self disappears. You become a body that gives and gives. A body that’s not just yours anymore. Especially if you’re breastfeeding. You miss yourself. The old version of you. The one who could shower without rushing. The one who felt confident in her skin. The one who didn’t have to plan her day around feeding schedules. They say it gets better. And it does. But no one says it might take years. No one tells you that healing isn’t just physical. If you’re in that space right now, I want you to know you’re not alone. You’re not failing because you don’t feel “back to normal.” You’re rebuilding. Slowly....

Grote Geest, ik voel me veilig en tevreden met het weten dat mijn spirituele gidsen bij me zijn. Ik sta open voor de flow van de goddelijke levenskracht die me omringt. Laat me anderen helpen waar ik kan, en me gezegd voelen door hemelse energie. Verlichting geeft een heldere en sterke verbinding met het goddelijke weer. Jouw spirituele gidsen en hemelse beschermers zijn dicht bij je en communiceren met je. Neem dit gevoel van vrede, dat ontstaat uit hun onvoorwaardelijke liefhebbende energie, helemaal in je op. Verlichting betekent de goedkeuring van Spirit en verzekert je ervan dat je op de juiste weg bent. Er komen gelegenheden voor je om bouwer van het licht te zijn en jouw kennis van spirit met anderen te delen. Alle levende schepsels lijken buitengewoon te worden aangetrokken door het innerlijk licht dat jij uitstraalt. Vertrouw erop dat je hoger zelf je leidt terwijl je jezelf en anderen helpt op een rustige, liefdevolle manier. Gebruik het Goddelijke licht om je in verbinding t...

Joseph Cotton and Marilyn Monroe as happily married couple George and Rose Loomis in Niagara a 1953 American film-noir thriller directed by Henry Hathaway. It was one of 20th Century Fox's biggest box-office hits that year. Monroe was given top billing in Niagara, which elevated her to star status. Her next two films, Gentlemen Prefer Blondes (with Jane Russell) and How to Marry a Millionaire (with Betty Grable and Lauren Bacall) were even bigger successes.

Ridder van staven en zwaarden tien! Gedachten ordenen. Je hoofd vol zit met negatieve gedachten, hierdoor wil je het liefst weg rennen omdat het gevoelens boven brengt die niet prettig voelen. Gun jezelf de rust en de ruimte om stil te staan bij je gevoelens en je gedachten. Geef jezelf liefde en buig zo deze gevoelens en gedachten om in positieve gedachten en gevoelens. Ben in het hier en nu en denk liefdevolle gedachten over jezelf. Affirmeer: ik hou van mij. ---------------------- Knight of wands and ten of swords! Organize thoughts. Your head is full with negative thoughts, that is why you would like to run away because it brings up feelings that do not feel good. Allow yoursepf the rest and space to stabd still with your feelings and thoughts. Give yourself love and transform these feelings and thoughts into positive feelings and thoughts. Be in the here and now and think loving thiughts about yourself. Affirm: I love me.

  “Wait till you have kids that behave just like you.” I did. I had the loud one. The sensitive one. The stubborn one. The one who feels everything so deeply it spills out in tears and laughter. The one who needs extra cuddles, extra patience, extra reassurance. The one who shuts down when it all feels like too much. And I realized… that was me. That is me. And suddenly, I saw myself through gentler eyes. I saw how easy it is to love someone like that. How easy it is to be kind. To offer softness instead of shame. To hold space for the chaos and the calm. Loving them helped me learn to love the parts of myself I once tried to hide. They didn’t make me harder to love. They just reminded me I never was.  

MARILYN MONROE MUSICAL REVISITED "THERE'S NO BUSINESS LIKE SHOW BUSINESS",1954. Irving Berlin's There's No Business Like Show Business is a 1954 20th Century-Fox musical-comedy-drama film directed by Walter Lang. It stars an ensemble cast, consisting of Ethel Merman, Dan Dailey, Donald O'Connor, Mitzi Gaynor, Marilyn Monroe, Johnnie Ray, and Hugh O'Brian. The title is borrowed from the famous song in the stage musical (and MGM film) Annie Get Your Gun. The screenplay was written by Phoebe Ephron and Henry Ephron, based on a story by Lamar Trotti] and the movie was Fox's first musical in CinemaScope and DeLuxe Color. Donald O'Connor later called the film the best picture he ever made. The plot follows the Donahues, led by father Terry (Dailey) and mother Molly (Merman), vaudeville veterans who thrive on performing. Over the years, they add their children into their act, making them the Five Donahues. Tim (O’Connor) is the hoofer with fast-flying fee...

Het oordeel en zwaarden twee! Beslis voor jezelf. Je oordeelt over jezelf. Vraag je eens af waar die oordelen vandaan komen. Door de conditioneringen uit jouw jeugd, doe je iets goed of doe je iets fout? Ook al zegt je hart dat je een bepaalde keuze mag maken, jouw conditionering gaat daar overheen door je gedachten de kant op te sturen die maatschappelijk verantwoord is. Breek door deze conditioneringen en hoor de roep van je hart. Ga naar binnen in jezelf en voel waar jij behoefte aan hebt, waar jij blij van wordt. Affirmeer: ik maak mijn eigen keuze. ---------------------------- Judgement and two of swords! Decide for yourself. You judge yourself. Ask yourself where these judgements are coming from. By the conditioning from your youth, are you doing something right ir wrong? Even though your heart says that you are allowed to make a certain choice, your conditioning is setting it aside by sending your thoughts towards what is responsible from societies point of view. Break through t...

  Officially in my private mama era. No updates unless I choose to share them. No explanations. No justifications. Right now, it’s about protecting my little bubble. Choosing softness over performance. Peace over pressure. My family comes first. Our emotions, our rest, our joy. Our boundaries aren’t up for debate. Not everyone needs a front row seat to our lives. We’re allowed to grow in quiet. To heal in silence. To celebrate privately. Because right now, privacy feels like love. And protecting our peace is the most sacred thing I can do as a mom.  

  “Helen of medicatie” Lief mens welke betekenis draagt genezen voor jou? is dit het opheffen van fysieke pijn, via medicatie? je verlicht voelen vanwege zwaartekracht omarmen? of bevrijding ervaren, door emoties en hartzeer toelaten? Kortom, een keus maken tussen medicatie of werken aan jezelf Waarvoor kies je, als er sprake is van alsmaar fysieke pijn en hartzeer wát voelt dan nog als genezing? alles draait immers om bevrijding mentale ballast met als gevolg vermindering of opheffen fysieke pijn stel je voor nooit meer fysieke klachten, kwaaltjes of pijn dan valt het leven toch plotseling stil waardoor de mens gevoelloos wordt d.w.z. geen vrijheid hebben of verlichting ervaren want pijn lijden wil immers zeggen, bewust worden van jezelf waardoor een innerlijke tocht ontstaat door ’n veld vol trauma’s, blokkades en hartzeer weet, hoe meer ’n mens werkt aan lasten dragen des te meer uiterlijke schoonheid en innerlijke helderheid ervaren wordt De niet Spiritueel ontwaakte mens roept...

  Het gevoel dat we soms bespeuren, dat de onmetelijkheid, de onbeperktheid het waarachtige vaderland van onze ziel is, is geen illusie. Het vindt zijn oorsprong in onze psychische structuur. Daarom ervaren zij, die weigeren met deze behoeften van hun ziel rekening te houden, diep van binnen altijd een soort ontevredenheid. Zelfs als ze vermogend zijn en omgeven worden door eerbetoon, succes en roem, zullen ze altijd het gevoel houden dat het hun aan iets ontbreekt. En het is nutteloos te proberen dit gevoel te ontkennen of te verdringen, want het is er om ons te verplichten de weg te gaan die ons tot de Bron van het licht zal leiden. God kun je niet zien, horen, aanraken, verklaren of bereiken. Maar toch worden we vervuld door de onweerstaanbare behoefte naar Hem op zoek te gaan. En juist God zelf heeft deze behoefte in ons geplant, opdat we nooit zouden ophouden vooruit te gaan, want daar draait het om: nooit op te houden. ☼ Omraam Mikhaël Aïvanhov  

DID YOU KNOW???? Marilyn Monroe The tragedy of Marilyn Monroe’s life is that she clearly had severe emotional problems that needed sorting, but she was trapped in a world where she was firmly tied to a pedestal made out of her sex appeal. Small wonder that she went through a meltdown on Some Like it Hot. Her unprofessionalism on that film set has become the stuff of legends, with Monroe showing up hours late to the production and constantly flubbing her lines, which led to breakdowns on Monroe’s part. Her co-star, Tony Curtis (seen below with MM), later quipped that if it hadn’t been for Monroe’s bra size, she would have been placed in a mental asylum, while director Billy Wilder was so infuriated by Monroe that he didn’t invite her to the wrap party when the film was finished, and when he was asked whether he’d work with her again, he joked that his doctors advised against it.

  "Eugenia Dovedale's father had been High Steward to the Marquis of Buckbury and after her father's unexpected death, Eugenia had to leave 'Paragon' the family's beautiful and much loved cottage on the estate. She and her mother now lived uncomfortably with her Great-aunt Cloris in London as they could not afford anywhere else. Mrs Dovedale maintained strong hopes of her daughter making a good marriage and improving their position. She was thrilled when the Marquis returned from France and began to show considerable interest in Eugenia.However Eugenia was determined only to marry for love and passion and she dreamed of being swept off her feet. She resisted the overtures of the Marquis and then a Russian painter called Gregor Brodosky came to paint her great-aunt and Eugenia fell for his obviously charms and goodlooks.Mrs Dovedale suffered a nasty coach accident and the Marquis invited her and Eugenia to stay at Buckbury Abbey to recover. The Marquis's adm...

Staven drie (ervaren) en bekers vier (naar binnen gaan)! Loslaten. Je ziet loslaten als een moeilijke ervaring in je leven. Vooral als de relatie met mensen die heel lang dichtbij je hebben gestaan, verandert. Je beseft je dat jij groeit en je grootste wens is dat zij met je mee groeien. Dit lukt niet altijd en daardoor voelt het alsof je alleen achter blijft. Dat gevoel kun je ombuigen naar een gevoel van dankbaarheid. Bedank de mensen die jou gesteund hebben zodat je daar bent kunnen komen, waar je nu bent. Deze mensen krijgen nu een andere rol in jouw leven. Laat het oude denkbeeld los en omarm de nieuwe kijk en het gevoel welke je hebt gekregen in deze relaties. --------------------------- Three of wands (experiencing) and four of cups (turning in)! Letting go. You are seeing the letting go part of life as a difficult one. Especially if the relationship with people who were close for a long time, is changing. You realise that you are growing and your biggest wish is that they grow ...