Being a “middle mom”

 Being a “middle mom” is one of the most emotional places to be in

It’s not holding a baby anymore
but still being the one they run to when things feel too big

It’s watching them buckle themselves in the car
but still double checking it every time because the fear never really goes away

It’s letting them go play with friends on their own
but counting down the minutes until they’re back in your arms

It’s cheering them on as they shower and dress all by themselves
but standing outside the door remembering the giggles during bath time

It’s watching them grow into their own person
while quietly grieving the little hand that used to reach for yours

It’s the in between
where your heart is stretched between who they were
and who they are becoming

And no one really talks about how heavy and beautiful that space is all at once